Pointless.

Hi Assalamualaikum.

Apparently this is the last week for me here in Serdang before I have to go back to Johor this saturday. Mind you, I have been staying here for about 8 months now. Leaving home this time will be more difficult because I am now got used to live in my own house with my parents :'( I have never stayed so long at home, the last time was in 2009, before I leave for boarding school. This is saaaaaddd. I guess the thing with always being somewhere else makes you appreciate home a little bit more and now that you're finally home you don't really want to leave again (except going for a holiday) and ohh I sound so pathetic right now -__-

To make it worse, I will be facing my final year which requires me to write my thesis and I haven't even got any idea for my thesis title! And I have to submit the proposal in two weeks time. Congratulations, Sue. Congratulations.

Seriously, I have a feeling that this year will be a tough and emotional one :| Saya tak harap banyak dah. Cuma berharap dapat grad on time dan buat mak ayah happy dengan anak perempuan dia seorang ni. Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan kita semua yea.

"Physics. Bila Tekanan Tinggi, Kita Cari Ruang."

Have you ever listened to your loved one's broken voice and you could feel the physical pain inside?

Have you ever wanted to hug someone so tightly and wish that your hug could prevent her from being broken into pieces? Like you need to hold her tight to keep that fragile soul from shattering?

Have you ever wish that you could fly all the way to where your loved one is regardless the distance, just so you could hold her and be there for her, even when you could not think of any right advice to give her? You want to hold her so that even in the suffocating moment, she knows that you're there. Even when all things seemed to fail, you're there for her. Because your mere presence makes it more bearable.

Have you ever wish that you could channel some of your strength to someone else in any way possible? As in you tell the person to 'be strong' and the word has some magical effect that somehow will channel some of your strength towards that person?

Have you ever wish that only for that one day, you were granted with a soothing voice so you could sing your loved ones some lullabies to calm her down and let her sleep to ease off her mind? 

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"I pray that whoever reads this, that God heals whatever is hurting you.

Whatever is causing all those precious tears to fall from your eyes; whatever is breaking your heart, if it’s stress, anxiety, pain, illness, sadness, worry, the loss of a loved one, a divorce, a broken engagement, anything.

I pray that God heals all that is causing your distress and that He gives you something greater in return."

Dalam ruang kau, yang pastinya ada Allah. Dan terpulang pada kau sama ada mahu wujudkan aku dalam ruang kau atau tidak. Tapi biiznillah, aku selalu ada jika bila-bila masa kau perlukan aku dan ingin tarik aku masuk dalam ruang tersebut :)

Life Goals.

Hai assalamualaikum. I was bothered about something I saw earlier, and it turned out that my friend Aqilah was bothered with it too haha. Here is what she had to say about it.

This is my two cents. To me, life goal is a really subjective matter. Each person in life grows up in different environment, different background, different style of living and each of us has our own priorities, which may be different to each other. True that most of us dream of living in a big house, owning expensive cars, affording all branded stuff, etc. But life is not limited to that. What if I tell you that there are some people who will be contented with just having a small but nice house, as long as he gets to live peacefully with his family? What if I tell you, that there are some people who can't bother less about having a luxurious life, as long as he gets to travel all around the world? What if I tell you, that there are people who dreams of settling his life in a quiet village and works on his own garden because that what makes him happy more than all the things he could get in the world?

You see, we don't define life goals based on what most people want to achieve. It is subject to individual. We don't get to say what is right and what is wrong with someone's goal. We don't get to say that the person is not successful in their life just because they don't have what we think they should have. Just because you have one dream and it seems like the most ideal dream, it doesn't mean that others' dream should be the same. Some people are easily contented with the little things they got. It doesn't mean that they are narrow minded, it means they have little expectation and that's okay, if it feels enough for them. Maybe they're thankful with all the little things they have. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that having big dreams means that you're not thankful with what you've got. It means you have your own vision and that's okay too. What is not okay is to condemn people for having different life goals than yours.

Have some respect for other people's lives, and have some respect for their dreams too. Just because you were pressurised to do something that is not of your concern or priority yet, don't condemn those who dreams of it, or those who already achieved it. If they are happy with what they do, then let them be. Be happy for them. Maybe their dream is not as big as yours, but maybe it takes a lot more effort for them to achieve it. Maybe they were born in a different environment that is a lot poorer than yours. For example, my friend used to chase all the money and all the luxury in this world, but ever since she has a child of her own, her only dream is to provide a good life for her child. You can't tell her she lost a lot in her life because she sacrificed her teenage life by working so hard for the sake of her child. Because having him as her child means more than anything in her life. Her child is her dream.

What I am trying to say here is, create your own life goals. Have some vision. Plan your life. You can choose to tell it to the world, or keep quiet about it, we won't mind. But let's agree that every person has a different life goal, and each of us need to respect it provided it is not harmful to others. The world will be a better place if everyone is supportive of each other, right? ;)

My current goal. Hmphh *heavy breathing*