Daun yang Jatuh Tak Pernah Membenci Angin.

"Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami serta kedua ibu bapa kami..."

I felt a drop of tears falling on my right cheek as the voice on the speaker is heard. I let out a light sob, I hope no one caught me crying during that doa. I have not been there for 3 years and I forgot how serene the place could be. How in the brief moment, I met myself again - the one I missed for so long. I thought about my mother and my father. I thought about my family. I thought about my best friends. I thought about how I should be thankful of all the opportunities I have right in front of me. I thought about how I have a choice, to do my very best or to give up.

“Daun yang jatuh tak pernah membenci angin, dia membiarkan dirinya jatuh begitu saja. Tak melawan, mengikhlaskan semuanya.

Bahwa hidup harus menerima, penerimaan yang indah. Bahwa hidup harus mengerti, pengertian yang benar. Bahwa hidup harus memahami, pemahaman yang tulus.

Tak peduli lewat apa penerimaan, pengertian, pemahaman itu datang. Tak masalah meski lewat kejadian yang sedih dan menyakitkan. Biarkan dia jatuh sebagaimana mestinya. Biarkan angin merengkuhnya, membawa pergi entah kemana.” 

― Tere Liye, Daun Yang Jatuh Tak Pernah Membenci Angin

Dear myself,

I am sorry that I let my fear brings the worst out of you. I am sorry that I let you feel worthless just because I was not blessed with the same thing as she was. I am sorry that I let you worry too much. I am sorry that I let you believe that you failed miserably in life, just because of that one thing, and I failed to let you see what are the other good things happening around you. Be free, now. Be nice to yourself. Have a firm faith in Allah for whatever He plans for you. Do not be so timid of yourself. May your bitter trials turn to be your best blessings.

Be free, and be you :)