Permanent Words.

"Betapa gampang perkara yang bernama cinta dan bahagia untuk menjadi suatu mitos dan lagenda. Rupanya kita semua cuma watak dalam buku yang berjudul Hidup Sebentar, awak. Rupanya kekecewaan dan tragedi kita adalah plot dan konflik semata."

- Wani Ardy

The most foolish act a writer could do when she is in love, is to write everything about it.

Every piece of her feeling. Every word that comes out from the person she loves. Every single thought that she thinks. Even when the love is not there anymore, her memory of loving the person remains.

And so she is forever haunted by her words.

Or if she is lucky enough, she gets to be with her love forever. Or she gets to create new memories with a new person. New writings. New feelings.

If she is lucky enough.

Moderate.

I am like this, because I don't know how to feel moderately.

Sometimes I see the sky and the next thing I know there are tears in my eyes.

Sometimes I feel the water running through my fingers and I am occupied of its movement.

Sometimes I read some random words and I fall in love with the writer.

Sometimes I look at old buildings and wonder who used to be here and what were they doing.

Sometimes I look at your picture and wonder why is there a sad smile.

Sometimes I see your eyes and wonder how do you feel deep inside.


So tell me, how to feel moderately, so that I don't think too much?

Random Book Rant.

1. Sometimes she picks up a book just to make herself feel less lonely.
2. Everytime she reads, she is being the most honest with herself.
3. When she reads, he let herself feels all the emotions she suppresses in her real life. 
4. She understands people better through her reading.
5. Reading can sometimes give her the strength she never thought she needed.
6. She really falls in love with words easily.